Consider this the longer version of my 'About' page lol.
But really, I should've seen my witchiness coming.
When the yearly Scholastic Books order forms were passed out in my elementary school, the first book I bought with my own money was this beginner's guide to understanding horoscpoes. I carried that book EVERYWHERE to the point that the cover practically disintergrated, and used it to give readings to my classmates about whether or not their crushes would be favoured by the stars.
During my high-school years, I had bought a book that illustrated the pros and cons of the major world religions, worldviews, cults, etc. While it was definitely developed with a 'this is why Christianity is good!' slant [something that i'm surprised i didn't pick up until a few months ago] and definitely had its share of misinformation, all it did do was point out the obvious truth- I was many things, but Christian wasn't one of them!
Nonetheless, I maintained the charade for as long as I could stand it, out of respect for my family. I remain grateful that at the very least I was raised in a household that actively encouraged my thirst for knowledge- to be inquisitive and comfortable in questioning everything in front of me, and to stick to my convictions.
When I moved to Canada, my interests in tarot grew around the same time as my general interests in magic resurfaced- and since I was living in my own apartment and thus living my own life, I was free to dive into my interests without the creeping Shame and Fear I would've been dealing with while still living at home. My friends didn't mind my exploration or my bringing it up in conversations and delighted in dipping their own toes and getting readings, exploring their natal charts... it was blissful.
So clearly, this 'self-revelation' was less of a 'OMG!', more of a 'well what took you so long?'.
So now that I find myself back in familial circumstances, I'm growing more and more confident in admitting to my woo-like tendencies whenever prompted- I still do it within reason, as I am still balancing my beliefs with those of others around me- but yea. I'm letting my woo out. I wear my moon pendant that I've glamoured daily, I read my daily cards on my phone. I whisper wishes to the moon whenever I see Her. I know now, finally, who I am- and more importantly, who I am capable of being.
The whispers and assumptions of those who don't know me, or don't care to know me anymore... just do not matter.
I'm finally living that life that those self-help articles always talk about- living your True Life, without reservations. It's just as applicable for those whose cultural society forces to hide their woo, as it is for those who feel stuck in a dead-end job because society demands your misery, or hiding your true expression of your sexuality or gender because the world mandates that you fit in the roles they deem suitable for you.
Well, fuck that noise. I am a Woman, Wife and Witch.
Come at me, bro.
And if you have ever been like me- if you read your horoscopes daily, or note with appreciation a person wearing a crystal for more than just aesthetic, or holding to a generational superstition just like it's Gospel, or if you are just so tired of pretending to be 'normal' when every cell in your body is crying out to be different, spectacular and really, truly magical?
Then I invite you to let your woo out too.
It doesn't even have to be with you shouting it from the rooftops. It can be as simple as a journal, or an app on your phone. Wearing colors and scents that you feel bring you power and strength. Whatever brings out that truly powerful side of you. Gain your knowledge and your insight from whatever you are drawn to. Cultivate that thirst for knowledge and discernment. Don't be afraid of uncovering your own witchy side- you may find like, me, she's been waiting for you to come around!
However you do it, let it be done unabashedly. With full love and appreciation. Because there's no other way to live a truly magical life.
LINDSAY - Black Woman, Wife, Witch and Resident Blogger of DarkLake Tarot~
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